I just want to visit all the sinkholes in the world. Specifically: I want to scuba dive the great blue hole in Belize. I also want to fast forward and finish the credential program already because it’s really hard trying to finish it with a baby. I also want consistent friendships, and to not lose my insurance once I turn 26… and I also want to not feel like a failure because I always envisioned myself having awesome health insurance once I was 26. I also want to feel confident in my own skin. K, night.
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“Social media causes false intimacy. You see what a person ate for breakfast on Twitter, and assume that’s what they eat every morning. You don’t take the time to *really* get to know them.” -Zosia Mamet
I have been obsessed with documenting every little thing on my various social media sites. I’m guilty of posting photos on Instagram, pouring my heart on tumblr, and even posting videos on the new vid app: vine. I admit, I am way distracted by stuff like this, and it kinda makes me sick just how much it can consume me. I hate how hurt I can feel when a best friend chooses to vent/pour their heart and soul on twitter when they could have called me (I’m just a phone call away.) Or the fact that I am one semester away from receiving my bachelors (finally!) and I should be studying for a very important exam (CSET) yet I’m too busy making it a priority to check what people are up to on twitter. It’s ridiculous, and it’s toxic. I wish I could be that person that says “ok, today will be the day that I exchange my iPhone5 for a brick phone that only lets me send out 5 texts a day” but I just don’t have the heart to do it.
I miss the way things used to be: 2 hour long late night phone conversations, making plans, sitting at dinner without smart phones, consistency, and the way my friendships used to be. I miss it all so god damn much. Starting today I will make it a point to focus on myself, my family, my school work, and my goals. More real life conversation, less checking on what people are updating.